A Mother’s Day “card”

My daughter was born at home in the company of her father, two friends, and two midwives. Two cardinals appeared outside the window just as I had my last contraction. I held this amazing, slippery and warm, wide-eyed baby in my arms amid soft candlelight while Billie Holliday crooned in the background.

Yesterday was my first Mother’s Day without her. She passed away at age 42 after long battles with cancer.

Mother’s Day is no different from any other day except for the name we’ve assigned it on the calendar. I was aware of its razor-like significance with my new identity: a mother who had lost a child. My only child.

I knew I had a choice. I could spiral downward watching everyone else receive flowers and cards from their dutiful children. Or I could spend the day recalling memories of my daughter and our lives together, and feeling grateful that I got to be her mom.

I believe our spirits live on after death in the other realm that we are blind to with our physical eyes. Shortly after her death, I was showered with signs that she was still around me. I sensed her presence. This Mother’s Day, I requested–without desperation–a sign from my daughter.

Later that morning, while my husband and I watched a recording of American Idol, I felt a deep love for her as one of the contestants sang Bob Dylan’s, “Make You Feel My Love.” It moved me to tears.

Then, while another contestant crooned “Lilac Wine,” my husband suddenly cried: “Pause it! Quick! Come here!” He was staring out the window waving me over. There on the branches of our lilac tree were two cardinals.

The best ever Mother’s Day “card” from my daughter.

Let Your Breath Be Your Pace

I have to fashion a bridge across the deep dark crevice of emotional pain that threatens to swallow me whole. I ask you now Spirit Guides and loved ones who’ve gone beyond to help me thread together this passageway that I may walk it slowly with ease and without incident. Can you help in this difficult path I see before me? Your Love is my Love is Me.

Dear One, fear not. It is your Nature to cling, to hop to the next stone of worry across what you feel is a burning lava at your feet. Allow yourself to let go. This is not yours to control. It must follow its own path and evolve without your input.

Yes, of course, you may indeed take action on your own behalf but no guarantees are given. There is probability, there is potential, there is free Will. You ask if this will be a lengthy process. You seek a Yes or a No. However, the Way of Nature is flow and undulation. Does a wave reach the shore in the same manner each time it is thrown forward? There is no “yes or no” when all the little droplets of water that make up the wave have each a mind of their own.

You feel a tsunami is upon you with all that is happening at the same time, and yet you can only breathe one breath at a time. Let your breath be the pace that you adhere to. Let the forces be at work here. You will come out the other side – renewed, whole, invigorated.

Keep your thoughts on the sea of infinite possibilities and allow, allow, allow the Unknown. These trials are for you, to shape you, to grow, to push against for strength and endurance. Only diamonds become diamonds by the pressure they endure.

You will rise, shining in the Glory of the Love you emit and Spread to the World. Fear not, for the Love of Spirit is within you and around you always.

Just Bee.

So many of us are suffering from mental anguish right now. There’s the long, seemingly endless road of the pandemic. There’s the long, seemingly endless road of the presidential election. There’s the long, seemingly endless road of battling cancer or fearing the worst when thinking about the health of our loved ones.

We tend to turn to prescription drugs like anxiety meds to help us sleep or we self-medicate with illegal or semi-illegal drugs like marijuana. The pharmaceutical companies are enjoying the surge.

It’s a vicious cycle. We take more drugs to counteract the side-effect of the drugs we’re already on, and on, and on…

When will we learn to walk again on our own without these crutches? Crutches that were meant to be temporary, but have sadly become the norm. Where’s our inner strength and fortitude to get us through difficult times? Where’s our faith?

Our perceptions and beliefs tell the story.

Today, with a paper cup and a junk mail flyer (no pun intended), I caught a bee who had gotten into our house. The bee frantically buzzed against the window, recognizing its home environment on the other side of the glass. It desperately wanted to get back to some sense of normalcy.

When I put the cup over him and slid the card underneath, his buzzing intensified. He panicked! His world had suddenly gone from bad to worse! It had shrunk to the size of a Dixie cup! Oh no! How did this happen?! Now I’m pissed! This is the end!, he must’ve thought.

What he didn’t know, what he couldn’t know was that he was headed for freedom, fresh air, and sunshine!

It’s the same with us. Our misperceptions can wreak havoc on our stress response and weaken our immune system. When circumstances are out of our control, our thoughts run wild with assumptions of doom and gloom.

The more likely scenario is that the Universe, God, the All-Knowing Creator has bigger plans. I believe that things happen for a reason. Not to test us, not to punish us. They just happen and we are changed by them, for the better, if we employ faith.

We can choose to come to terms with the uncertainty of the future, and accept what we don’t know, and trust that soon–or later–all will be well, as planned.

Take a lesson from the bee. Stop struggling. Bee-come aligned with a Higher Power who has your best interest at heart. Breathe. Stay in the present. Just Bee.

What is going on??

Most people hate uncertainty, not-knowing. This explains the popularity of psychics. But even psychics, the real ones, are not given specific information about your future to pass along. If they do “invoke” such information, they are likely fakes and cashing in on your fear of the unknown or your desperate need to know.

We humans are not given specific answers from our Higher selves nor from Spirit Guides/God/Universe. We are here to learn, develop, and grow. These juicy gifts of life on Earth won’t happen if we’re provided the answers to why, how, when, who, etc. Just as in school, we’d be cheating ourselves if we were given all the answers to our future.

We come into this life with no memory from before, and no foresight into what lies ahead. It’s the journey. It’s the journey. It’s the journey. Since we have no choice but to accept this fact, we might as well relax into the not-knowing.

But with help, we can gain valuable insight into possible and probably outcomes, cause and effect, amid our free will to choose. Sometimes answers come from just sitting in silence.

If you need to bypass that part due to lack of time or inability to concentrate, I can help by accessing your Spirit Guides through my own Guides in order shed some light on some of life’s issues: conflicts at work, relationship troubles, career changes, etc.

Sometimes just having a listening ear–from someone who’s not busy watching a screen–can help to talk it out and resolve problems.

Find me on Facebook here, and let’s see if we can untangle some issues and see light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. ❤

Up at 3 a.m.

There’s so much unrest in the world! The pandemic and police brutality BOTH affect communities of color. It’s heartbreaking! I know that’s a grave understatement, but I’m feeling the pain for all people.

Spirit Guides respond:

The positive is that Yes! This is being exposed finally in a BIG way! Change is bumpy, disruptive of status quo and routine. There is national outrage more than ever. Good! There should be. Let this play out without fear. Change is difficult and slow to move. It requires pandemics, crises, “earthquakes” to move mountains.

There will be lives lost, but we will emerge fresh, stronger, changed as a society. The final push! T will show his true colors in a crisis, both with the pandemic and with riots and protesters. He already has. Biden will prevail in November because the world will be ready. It can only withstand so much darkness before demanding Light. Biden is the lesser of two evils and people will want and are ripe for change and leadership they can get behind and feel safe with. T has shown the opposite which has helped fuel this eruption and his own demise, ironically.

Roll with the rattle of change. It always brings a brighter, better outcome. Love is the common denominator. Love is the larger force in the world; we just don’t hear about it on the news. We hear about the less than 1% who are lost in hate–of themselves first and ultimately of others.

“Only in the darkness can you see the stars.” ~Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.